Monthly Archives: June 2016

She can do anything.

I’ve wanted nothing more than my children to be overwhelmed with love.
For them to always know, without a doubt that their mom loves them beyond words or any form of measurement.

Many times, I have had moments in which I have felt that my sport might be taking something away from them. When Mark was gone, plenty of rides started at 2:45-3:00 am, just so I was done riding for 6 hours by the time I needed to pour them cereal then they had me the rest of the day (was a little tired, but I was there). I wish I knew the amount of miles, I have run starting after 10:30 pm, when the kids are in a deep sleep, house is clean, and my selfish needs are not eating into my family time.

Im far from the “ideal” mom, which I don’t even know exists anymore. At least for me personally, I believe we as mothers are gifted in so many areas, so of course we love/raise our children differently, as we emphasize our personal strengths.

There are some Moms that can bake the perfect chocolate chip cookie. The Mom who can homeschool her 5 children. The mom who is a doctor… The girl scout leader… The housekeeper… The my-kids-eat-nothing-but-homemade-from-scratch-GF-VEGAN-blessed-by-fairies-sweet-nuggets-from-heaven

With all these things we lead by LOVE & EXAMPLE.

Overhead Chloe with a friend in the garage a couple of weeks ago, I am sure the girl pointed out the absurd number of bikes in the garage…
“My mama can ride her bike 1000 miles. She can do anything. She does triathlon.”

She doesn’t need to be an Ironman, but she needs to know that she too can do ANYTHING. With hard work and dedication the world is hers, and I’ll be standing there on the side lines cheering her on, telling her children “you see your mama, she can do anything.”


To my brother.

To my brother David Antonio Castaneda:

To quote Rocky (because he is a bad ass, but pretend its in MY voice because sometimes I am a badass):
“Let me tell you something you already know. The world aint all sunshine and rainbows. Its a very mean and nasty place, and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it aint about how hard YOU hit. Its about how hard you can get hit and KEEP MOVING forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. Thats how winning is done! Now, if you know what you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain’t you. You’re better than that!

This quote and this video pertain so much to life. To OUR lives. We haven’t had it easy, but like I said we CAN NOT look at our lives with regret. You look at every shitty moment as stepping stone to get you to where you wanna be. Life can suck, but life is WHAT YOU MAKE it to be. You can not have great moments without the shitty ones, it makes you appreciate & cherish every piece of greatness that is in your life.

I once watched this video NON-STOP for a 6 hour bike ride, in my garage, in the dark. Sounds totally psychotic, but you have to get into YOUR OWN head. The video isn’t just pertaining to sports, like I said its LIFE.

“You want something, go get it, period.”
“Dig deep down and ask yourselves who do you want to be”
“Just decide.”

You feel the need to do something great? Then do it, but start small. You can’t help the world if you can’t help yourself. Just know that YOU CAN help yourself. Don’t accept anything but the best, and you CAN be the best, you just may have to work harder than some other people. But you CAN do it.

My all time favorite quote is from Mother Teresa”
“I know God won’t give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish he didn’t trust me so much.”

You have to God given ability to do anything you want. Don’t let other people doubt you. Hell, fuck other people. You can NOT rely on anyone. You can not trust ANYONE. YOU DO YOU. That being said, LISTEN to others, RESPECT others, always GIVE a helping hand and remember to say THANK YOU.

“If someone offers you an opportunity and you’re not sure you can do it, say yes then learn how to do it later”, Don’t EVER let an opportunity pass you by.

I personally also have some dreams that I am reaching for and had someone say;
“You know, if you are going to do this, you are either going to sink or swim.”
For a moment there was a piece of glitter dust of doubt, then I thought, I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT.
My reply?
“Well I ain’t that bad of a swimmer, so I’ll take my chances.”

Also one last thing, if some THING or some ONE does NOT bring JOY, then REMOVE it/them from your life. Keep around people that are on the same wave length as you, but don’t let anyone steal your wave.

And, I love you. Get your shit together and Ill be here with a helping hand.